i am 0% the person i was three years ago and i would probably get in a fight with 2011 me
Yup…teach her a lesson
I sit down in my standup shower
And let the cold water spill over me.
My body has succumbed to the sadness thats afloat in my heart.
People begin to ask “have you lost weight” I think to myself “is it noticeable”
This question is asked to me, the man that’s already skinny for his height.
The person that’s weighed the same since he was 16 but grown five more inches ..
Again, I’m sitting in the shower letting my tears spill. I let my soul. spill. It mixes with the cold water as a puddle, you’d never tell the difference. I can’t say “look what you’ve done to me” but I can say “it’d be different had I never me you”..
I’ve been able to fake my happiness but unable to fake an appetite. Unable to fake myself to sleep. I’ve slept 10 hours in the past four days. I’ve eaten two meals. I’m more than exhausted. But far from tired. My heart won’t let me rest. Each beat carries the tune of you ..